I DID NOT DIE, but perhaps suffered a few minor injuries. Okay enough of that.I survived the horrible, terrible, life threatening, teeth-grinding week.I have a feeling its probably going to get worse when next week comes, but who cares? (well, actually i do) But i'll wait and play along whatever happens.
I'm going to Amanda's house tommorrow, but i'm going to miss tuition as i have a full day till the night, so i have to sacrifice something. I know its not easy for others to miss their violin practice or trainings, but neither do i have to! I'm kinda thinking that i'm always the one who give in, maybe to avoid problems, or to make things easier for other people, although i have to explain MY own problem to my dad, creating more problems for myself then. I know that i am like easy to bully.I don't know why? Does anyone think i like it? Okay i mean its not like the bullying is that bad, but i always(make that sometimes) get intimidated by others, and when everyone stares at me, i tend to change the focus to someone else. I always try to keep people interested in me, not that i want attention that much, but i just want to make myself more known to others, but end up getting the jitters when people focus on me, and thus, losing my chance to shine.I discovered that my voice is soft( as in not loud). That gives people the impression that i'm soft-spoken.Which i kinda am, but not as bad as you think.I can be loud if i want to, believe it or not!Okay If you really know me, the real me, which not many people really knows, you would know that i'm like acting(not that i'm really faking it that bad) different when i'm with some people.Not that i want to, but when i speak and some people just don't give you their attention, i just cannot bear to continue what i want to say, and i just keep q-u-i-e-t.
Oh wells.I'm happy today! That mood would last till the night today! YAY! It would MAX. last through the night today.max.